So much to think about.

Wow what a roller coaster of emotion and feelings the past few weeks. I have started my new job as a REAL nurse. I is hard to think that I am doing real nurse stuff. My biggest challenge was my first day working on the floor. It was surreal, survival, and exhaustion all mixed together.

My first day was supposed to be a follow my orienting nurse around a get the hang of how and where things are. Well that is so not what happened. It took a turn for the worse, the terrible worse. My patients who I cannot say much about they were younger then 40 coded. For all who don't know what that means, it means stopped breathing, heart rate at nothing.....pretty much dead. Yeah new nurse, knows no-one and is now doing CPR on this individual. Talk about one heck of an adrenaline rush. Then the little kids walked in and the emotion all changed. I traded out at then end of my turn and grabbed the one child. We sat and cried and cried together. All I could think of was my own little girls at home being in this situation.

It was very hard to deal with the kids involved, it made it too personal. I cried many tears and reflected on the fragility of life. Having my patient pass away on the first day was not what I expected for a day of orientation.

I again was sucked back to reality and the ultimate appreciation for my husband and monkey babies. It reminded me that Heavenly Father truly is in charge of our existence here and when our time is done.

The rest of the week brought much chaos yet peace and the ability to cry about life and learn from it, then move on!! I LOVE my life, I love my family, I am even grateful for the yucky times. It makes each of us who we are!!!

My dedication...

This is dedicated to my Kelsie!!! You are one AWESOME person. You will rock it at school and you can achieve ANYTHING that you set your heart out too. I love you and I am SO glad that we got to spend time at camp together!!!



Your energy and enthusiasm are contagious to EVERYONE around you. You were talked about often in the stake amongst the YCL's. They were very excited to see you when you would come over and we were all very excited to come and give you your "present" with nasty pirate teeth. AND who else would have helped me do the Princess Pat?

You are loved and looked up to by more people then you will ever realize. Keep that light of Christ with you at all times. Keep climbing your mountains!! You are SPECIAL!!

ONE YEAR!!!!!

One year ago today, I achieved apartment drama freedom. What a joyous day!!! Student housing has it benefits but it also has it down sides. I was ready to not live with a million other families.

LIFE ROCKS!!! I can turn up my radio and sing as loud as I want. My kids can play outside without me having to be there, AND they can run through the sprinklers anytime they want. AND AND AND .....drum roll...... I can do laundry whenever I want and take as long as I want.

I am so grateful for the Lord leading us here. It was truly an answer to prayers and much searching. We were led to the PERFECT ward, the perfect area, and the PERFECT friends. Our intention was to just rent for a year until I graduated then move but we have fallen in love. So we will stay for longer and SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!

Once again, I am very blessed to be led to where I am. Happiness and room to move!!