My life...

I have been so terribly busy this past week that I have not had time to sit and catch my breath. Between school, kids, hubs, and the daily business it it hard sometimes to find myself. So I have sat here pondering tonight (while doing more homework) about myself. I had an interesting question appear on a mental health quiz today about marriage. It read something along the lines of studies show marriage is beneficial to men and detrimental to women. I so wanted to press the false button, but my two friends beside me said it was absolutely true. They were living examples. How sad that made me. Do I want to view life as a detriment because I chose (keyword chose) to change my life. I may not be the same person I was before I met my hubs. I know I am not the same person he married (in a good way). And I am certain that I am no where near the person I was before I have Lima or even Pinto. I have not lost my identity or myself. I have grown!! I never could have imagined that being married and having two giggly, singing, dancing girls in my life would be heaven sent. There are days when I wish I could be more carefree, but then I think to myself, Carefree to do what? Look to what my future my hold. I now hold my future. Every night I hold them as we read a story and sing our Jesus song before bed. Every night I sleep next to my future, my eternity. I would not be the person I am without those people. I don't need to sit and try and find myself. They are what make me, me. Who would I color with if Lima wasn't there? Who would I dance with if Pinto were not here? Who's shoulder would I cry on if Bean were not there? There are to many people in the world that think there is always something better. The sad thing is, there is usually something much worse. I am very grateful that I have the very best!!! I know that those little blonde girls I see everyday were meant for me. God wrapped them up and trusted me with them. I know that my path crossed Beans for a reason. He was the one person who could understand my life, my situation, me. Though life may be stressful with another test every Monday or more homework to do, studying. These are so minute compared to forever. I never thought I would get to this point with Beans being done with school (my heart still says WE DID IT!!). Somedays it feels like I will never get that degree, but yesterday someone said six months. THAT'S IT!!! It takes longer to have a baby. I can do it. We all can do it. Time is relative. Life is forever. I love you family!!